In 2013 I was in prison and I wrote this poem that I found when looking through my old papers…
NO EGG NOG THIS YEAR
I have fallen again
Locked up in a hole
Christmas is here
Jingle bells once again the enemy stole
I am a prisoner
Locked up in my own mind
Razor wire fences
No Christmas cheer to find
Put out from the world
Feel like a forgotten castaway
Christmas is here again
Can I make it through this day?
My family is celebrating
Singing Christmas carols to hear
All I can listen to
Metal to metal echoing fear
How do I do Christmas?
As a prisoner to sin
Santa Claus and his reindeer
Don’t have proper clearance to get in
Now I must suffer
Sitting dejected on my bunk
Memories of Christmas past
No eggnog to be drunk
No Christmas tree to trim
No stockings to be filled
Just me and my new family
Held here against our will
Stuck in this mind frame
Negativity at its best
Now I must focus
On Christmas’ true greatest gift
It’s all about Jesus
The rest just distraction in the wind
Trying to take my focus away
Keeping me locked up in pretend
Santa Claus is coming
It’s all about who gets the best gift
Christmas parties on high
Let’s get lost in holiday bliss
This year can be different
The year it finally sinks in
Unable to celebrate with the world
A grateful prisoner locked within
Now I can focus
On the only thing I have left
Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior
This year I received the greatest gift
LUKE 2:11 (NKJV)
For there is born to you this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord.